Chapter 20 – Father and Son: Page 26

Chapter 21 - Father and Son - Page 26

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  • Donald Burch

    Oh, dear lord don’t let their first conversation turn into a lover’s spat! LOL! “What do you MEAN you shouldn’t have LET me…?” Yeah, I can see it. Elan is his own man now and Rafa’s overprotectiveness might rankle. Yes, indeed they need to start all over again and get to know each other as adults that have grown since they were last together. This can arguably be more challenging than the story to date.

    • bronakopdin

      oh hopefully not >_<'

      though of course at one point they would argue with each other about whatever… but I don'T want them to fight at their reunion!
      Absolutle agree with the new beginning though! This is also why I wanted to know fro Mice how long it has been since their last interaction… people change over time, it's just natural :)

    • Roxabel Victoria Pérez Egaña

      Hahaha but they always had these kind of silly arguments that ended in bed <3 like a cute normal loving couple <3 I really think they are in love with each other's soul <3 I am really hopeful that they are going to end up together… I really really want them to… :3

    • Aurelie86

      I was thinking the same thing! I was like nooo why nooo! Shh less talking more screwing!

  • Rafa thought bubble: I need to see you. I need to see that you are indeed alright. I need to see you so I can convince you to come back to me.

    • Lleyn

      I love your comment, Doki, and I’m pretty sure it’s almost identical to what Elan is thinking. With the slight difference that Rafa is convinced that Elan is better off without him.

      And god, Elan, you’re not hesitating to agree to the meeting, are you? It seems Mice has found the pleasures of torturing her readers with cliffhangers, tsk!

      • Roxabel Victoria Pérez Egaña

        YEEEEEESSS I AM DYING!!! XD sorry, I exploded.
        Well, but, you know Lleyn, I think both of them think the other is better off without them, and both suffer the same pain, and both are so dense. My gosh. <3

    • bronakopdin

      me, too!
      that would really fit Rafa’s longings I guess! Though with his feeling of inferiority towards Elan’s social standing… let’s hope his affections will win this battle!

    • Donald Burch

      Something about such intense need can overwhelm reason. I can imagine on meeting Elan for the first time since getting shot Rafa might choke. Rafa has not been able to process his pain and fear since Elan was shot and Elan is still dealing with PTSD from his experience. Post-traumatic Stress Disorder doesn’t know reason and sadly, Rafa’s presence might trigger it. It is my hope that the lovers press past their initial reactions and simply touch. They’ve been through so much together and individually that talking might only lead to hurt feelings and confusion. Touch is simple. It is clear. Once they feel the other again and possess that unwavering certainty that the other still loves them then they can process their painful experiences. Gah, but this story now embodies my hope that love wins in the end. Reality is often so heartbreaking.

      • Lleyn

        Thanks for all the insight on PTSD, Donald Burch! And yes, I think it is an important factor that the shooting has been traumatic for -both- of them. That said, it seems they deal with their stress from the trauma differently:

        Rafa, by blaming himself, is more destructive / turned backwards (and I really don’t like where this “I shouldn’t have let you” is leading – you can’t keep Elan in a cage, Rafa), while Elan is a lot more constructive / forward-looking in confronting and conquering (for the moment) his PTSD head on when he goes back to the scene of the shooting to meet the Governor. He does what needs to be done, while Rafa lingers on what should’ve been done.

        • Donald Burch

          Agreed, Elan has already demonstrated the attitude that will help him heal the damage done by the shooting. I’m concerned about Rafa because in many respects he has yet to process what happened after the shooting. Elan was whisked away leaving Rafa hanging in a kind of hellish limbo. Burying himself in his work is surviving but it isn’t coping nor is it healing.

          • themice

            They both experienced it in different ways. The body goes into shock quickly after such trauma, so Elan only remembers bits and pieces and they only come to him erratically. Some healing happens as he worked to heal his body and to marvel at its capability to heal physically from the trauma, but of course not mentally completely.

            Rafa is having a hard time because he remembers ALL of it vividly. His brain/body is not protecting him by hiding the info the far corners of his brain like with Elan. And he keeps seeing it happen on a smaller scale to other people in his neighborhood. He was also denied HELPING Elan to heal, so he feels not only culpable, but helpless.

            So I hope this all brings some sympathy to Rafa as you will see.

            Thank you Donald for bringing in your insights.

          • Donald Burch

            I’m always concerned that my info somehow intrudes or distracts from the beauty that is this story. I make sure to have my facts and keep on relevant topics but it doesn’t stop me from wondering if I go too far or mention too much. Thank you for adding your insight, Mice. I knew Elan and Rafa were both going through hell in their own ways. I join others in hoping the boys pull through. Thank you again for a wonderful story.

          • Red

            That is so right Mice. Rafa is traumatized too!

  • dillydally

    I love that hand touching his lips <3 so subtle…

    • Donald Burch

      One of many things I love about Themice’s work is the care taken with subtle details. The lip touch seems so natural. How many people overlook it every day when we talk on the phone and yet here, having our attention drawn to it Themice points out how it means something special. That and without telling us what specifically is intended by the gesture, leaving it for us to speculate. Crafty genius there, that!

  • bronakopdin

    oh Elan, please agree!!
    but then he need to rush to uncle Felipe >_<'
    still they need to meet up, if not now then SOON!
    How Elan touches his lips says more than 1000 words ever could…

    btw Mice, how much time did actually go by between now and the last time they saw/talked to each other? The library moment not counted of course since there only Rafe saw Elan from behind bording the car…

    • themice

      It has been about six weeks from that awful day. Elan is about miraculously recovered, not emotionally though.

      • Donald Burch

        I didn’t want to stick my foot in my mouth hazarding a guess but yeah, four to six weeks sounds about right provided there are no complications during recovery. I’m sure it feels to Elan and Rafa like the longest six weeks of their lives. Sadly, Elan has had no post-trauma counseling unless it took place off-screen. Mr. Singer appears to have isolated his son completely and that only guarantees that Elan will have a harder time recovering from the psychological trauma of the shooting.

        This is the part that seriously concerns me because that trauma can jump out at Elan if he encounters literally anything that reminds him of the shooting. That includes Rafa. For anyone struggling to understand what I’m saying it is the same as if a rape victim is touched by her husband or boyfriend — she is going to flinch. Her skin is going to crawl. She is going to feel like throwing up and lapsing into a full-blown panic.

        It would not matter how much she knew her husband or boyfriend. It would not matter how much she loved and trusted him. That trauma is branded on the soul. It changes brain chemistry. It has destroyed relationships. I pray the boys can weather this storm because, if what I suspect proves true then it is a greater challenge to their relationship than anything we’ve read so far.

        • Sofia Rodrigues

          I’m curious about the example you used. You mentioned it changes brain chemistry, but then how do they overcome it?

          • Donald Burch

            Depending on severity PTSD triggers can be managed with counseling and in some cases medication. A sudden event like Elan’s shooting might take a few months to a year or more before flashbacks significantly ease. It depends on the patient’s determination to get well and the depth of trauma. Sadly, triggers themselves tend to last a lifetime.

            To explain it in another way, our brains automatically take “snapshots” of traumatic events. Our brains then use these snapshots to warn us of similar danger in the future. Anything that resembles the event from a smell to a familiar shape to a face can trigger the brain to replay — that is re-live — the experience. This is called a “flashback.” Elan will experience flashbacks of the shooting anytime he encounters something that reminds him of it. Sadly, it’s permanent. He can only learn to live with it. Counseling and medication can help if flashbacks prove debilitating.

          • Sofia Rodrigues

            That really is depressing T_T For the person experiencing and for any other close ones that witness it and might feel at a loss on what to do D:

          • Donald Burch

            This is one of the reasons why I offer information when it seems appropriate. EMR offers an opportunity to see PTSD first-hand both from the vantage of the sufferer and those closest to him. The best way to help someone with PTSD is knowledge. 1. Understand this is an automatic response no different from how you flinch when you feel fire. 2. It isn’t a cry for attention or something one can choose to ignore. 3. If you are close with someone who lives with PTSD learn what triggers it. Keep in mind that it stems from terror and pain. One suffering from it might not be inclined to discuss details. Also, one might not know what the triggers are. It takes time and self-exploration to find triggers and work around them. It takes time and practice to talk about it but talking helps most. 4. Lastly, patience; one suffering from PTSD is often deeply embarrassed or ashamed of it. The best thing you can do is be there and keep life as normal as possible. Talk when opportunity comes up but most of all just be there. Quiet support and understanding go a long way.

          • SVM2015

            Are you involved in the medical field, Donald? These explanations are really helpful for students and the average person to understand. :) Then again, I do enjoy psych evals in fiction.
            PTSD or none, it is going to take time for Elan and Rafa to heal from this series of unfortunate events. I do get worried that it gets thwarted somehow, especially with the direction the past entries have gone. But then again, I feel like it’s going upward from here and it’s encouraging that Elan had the courage to reach out to Rafa. Trauma can keep you away from the person you love even with something as simple as a telephone call. Even if love only partially heals pain, it certainly makes a difference.

          • Donald Burch

            I’ve been on both sides of the counseling couch for much of my life. I served as a youth peer counselor and more recently, I’m going for Certified Peer Specialist. I have personal experience with PTSD from childhood trauma. I’ve worked with both specialists and fellow sufferers so I’ve grown well-versed in its effects and treatment. I keep in mind how this is a work of fiction and regardless what anyone, least of all me thinks Themice will take this story where Themice wants to go with it.

            Elan has demonstrated remarkable resilience physically, mentally, and emotionally. While he might suffer effects from PTSD for rest of his life, Elan’s personal strength figures strongly in how deeply and how frequently it troubles him.

        • D. Garrett

          i love ur insights as i read this. very interesting.

  • Roxabel Victoria Pérez Egaña

    OMG OMG OMG… I need to say that… I CAN’T BELIEVE ITTT!!! Finally they heard each other’s voice!! and probably they are going to meeeeeeeeeeeeeet <3 aasdfasdfasfasdfdfdadafdfaf

    Sorry for the fangirl explosion. I love how stubborn they can be <3

  • Red

    Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!

  • D. Garrett

    yes yes yes yes yes! let them meet. whoo hoo.